Lady Gaga Was Very Depressed Last Year: 'I Felt Like I Was Dying'

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Lady Gaga appears on the cover of this month’s Harper’s Bazaar; it’s a very humanizing interview, in which she seeks to dispel the notion that she is “a myth” or “an act.” Towards the end of the interview, she opened up about her recent battle with depression:

I became very depressed at the end of 2013. I was
exhausted fighting people off. I couldn’t even feel my own heartbeat. I
was angry, cynical, and had this deep sadness like an anchor dragging
everywhere I go. I just didn’t feel like fighting anymore. I didn’t feel
like standing up for myself one more time — to one more person who lied
to me.
But January 1, I woke up, started crying again, and I looked in the mirror and said, “I know you don’t want to fight. I
know you think you can’t, but you’ve done this before. I know it hurts,
but you won’t survive this depression.” I really felt like I was
dying—my light completely out. I said to myself, “Whatever is left in there, even just
one light molecule, you will find it and make it multiply. You have to
for you. You have to for your music. You have to for your fans and your
family.”

Thankfully, she says that she’s happy now: she realized that “depression doesn’t take away your talents — it just makes them harder to find.”

On a more positive note, she got to sincerely state, “Performing in space is such an honor.” It is! It’s a big honor! [Harper’s Bazaar; images by Terry Richardson for Bazzar]


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