Kid Cudi Checks Into Rehab for 'Depression and Suicidal Urges'

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In a lengthy note on Facebook, Kid Cudi writes that he has checked himself into rehab for treatment for depression and suicidal urges.

“I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me,” he writes. “If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life.”

Complex reports that Kid Cudi’s latest album, Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’, was set to be released September 29th, but has been pushed back due to sample clearances and various other internal strife. Cudi was also scheduled to perform at Complexcon in November and was recently involved in some not-shade about the music industry, artists, writers and fakeness on Twitter that called out both Drake and Kanye West. Any issue with the latter was cleared up once this previously-unheard collaboration between ‘Ye and Cudi was leaked yesterday. Called “Too Bad I Have To Destroy You Now,” it’s a rough cut from Cudi’s 2014 LP Satellite Flight: The Journey to Mother Moon. Both men sound pretty mad.


As substantial as any of this drama seemed at the time, it is less so now when one considers the internal struggle Cudi has been going through.

His full statement, from Facebook, is below:

Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.
I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery. If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs. Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry. I love you,

Scott Mescudi

There’s no need to feel ashamed about any of this. Depression is real and it sucks, so it is fantastic that he’s getting some help.

Senior Writer, Jezebel

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After a little time and with some help, hopefully he moves beyond shame and arrives at a place of pride for opening up about his mental illness, likely being an example to many others who suffer in silence.

Peace be with you, Scott!