Diddy on Kim Porter's Death: 'I've Been Trying to Wake Up Out of This Nightmare' 

Sean “Diddy” Combs has posted an Instagram video paying tribute to model and actress Kim Porter, who was the mother of their three children as well as his on-again-off-again girlfriend of 13 years.

Porter died on November 15 after reportedly suffering weeks of pneumonia. An emergency dispatch video claims cardiac arrest, but the cause of death remains unreported.

In a caption, Diddy writes:

“For the last three days I’ve been trying to wake up out of this nightmare. But I haven’t. I don’t know what I’m going to do without you baby. I miss you so much. Today I’m going to pay tribute to you, I’m going to try and find the words to explain our unexplainable relationship. We were more than best friends, we were more than soulmates. WE WERE SOME OTHER SHIT!! And I miss you so much. Super Black Love”

The video was shot during the couple’s 2006 Essence cover photo shoot, according to Vibe.

“We’re displaying black love,” Porter says in the video. “We don’t get a chance to see too much of that.”