In a gut-wrenching eulogy published by Time, comedian Patton Oswalt mourns his wife, the acclaimed crime writer Michelle McNamara, who passed away suddenly on April 21, 2016.

In his piece, Oswalt celebrates McNamaraā€™s existence as ā€œa life spent fascinated with people and relationships and the unknown.ā€

ā€œI loved her,ā€ he writes. ā€œThis is the first time Iā€™ve been able to use ā€˜Iā€™ writing this. Probably because there hasnā€™t been much of an ā€˜Iā€™ since the morning of April 21. There probably wonā€™t be for a while. Whatever there is belongs to my daughterā€”to our daughter. Alice.ā€

As for the mark McNamaraā€”who made a name for herself by following strange and often unsolved crime stories (like that of the Golden State Killer, which she investigated for the LA Times, or the many others that she documented on her blog, True Crime Diary)ā€”left behind, Oswalt states:

The reaction to her passing, the people who are shocked at her senseless absence, is a testament to how she steered her life with joyous, wicked curiosity. Cops and comedians callā€”speechless or sending curt regards. Her family is devastated but canā€™t help remember all of the times she made them laugh or comforted them, and they smile and laugh themselves. She hasnā€™t left a void. Sheā€™s left a blast crater.


Oswalt also quotes their daughter, Alice, who, unable to sleep early one morning because of grief, told him, ā€œWhen your mom dies youā€™re the best memory of her. Everything you do and say is a memory of her.ā€

And what a worthy memory.

Read the full eulogy here.

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