Here's a preview of Jaycee Dugard's emotional and lengthy interview with Diane Sawyer that will air this Sunday night. In it, she talks about giving birth in a backyard at the age of 14, saying that when the baby came, she "felt like I wasn't alone anymore, I had somebody that was mine." Jaycee's mother will also speak, and in the clip shown above she admits "for 18 years I kicked myself" over not kissing her children goodbye on the day Jaycee was abducted. Keeping a box of tissues nearby while you watch may be a good idea.
I actually think I understand a little about "the switch" that she flipped to endure her captivity. One way of dealing with a horrific experience is dissociating yourself from it. You tell yourself (almost unconsciously) that it isn't happening, you sort of observe yourself from outside yourself, almost as if the situation were happening to someone else. Now I've never had an experience anywhere near as horrific as Jaycee Dugard's, but had some awful, unreal times with my family growing up. My mother is seriously bipolar, and living through her manic episodes (the first one I remember was when I was seven, and the every 3-5 years after that) was a nightmare. One way I coped was by dissociating from what was going on, unconsciously. I have no idea what I would have done in Jaycee's situation. I don't know if I could have flipped the switch and kept it flipped for so many years, repeated rapes, two pregnancies, and everything else. I have nothing but respect and admiration for this woman. She is amazing, an example of how extremely resilient people can be.