Everything seemed a little better and brighter in the world when a California high school crowned 16-year-old trans girl Cassidy Lynn Campbell homecoming queen — but it turns out the waste of humanity came to crap on her parade.

Marina High School in Huntington Beach, Calif. awarded the homecoming queen crown to Campbell and she said "I was so proud to win, not just for me but for everyone out there. I think it really shows the progression of the times."

However, the next day, Campbell posted the above video to her YouTube channel — where she documenters her life as a transgender teen — and it's heartbreaking. She says she's been bombarded with "negative," "judgmental," "mean," "hateful" and "ignorant" comments.

Why is it that I fucking won homecoming queen but I'm not happy? I'm so sad, I'm so distraught and so broken down and so upset and so deteriorated and so tired of the world. I'm tired of the lies.

She adds that she wants to be a role model, but this is, understandably, a lot for her to take on right now:

I'm so sad and so distraught and so broken down and so upset and so deteriorated and so tired of the world. 'm tired of life. And I know I need to be strong for the kids that I did this for and people I did this for, but I can't right now.

[LAist] [YouTube]

Previously: California High School Awesomely Crowns Trans Girl Homecoming Queen