Saturday Night Social: You Give Me The Sweetest Taboo

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elizabethimbrie
ElizabethImbrie

OK, Ladies (& Gents). Having a pretty serious issue and would like your feedback.

I'm having a hard time. (Trigger warning: Alcohol abuse)

Last week, I decided I was imbibing too much, desired to correct the issue. Put myself on a "wean" from red wine. Instead of my usual 1.5-2 bottles of Merlot per evening (I know. Shut it.), I went for the reasonable 1 bottle only, and to bed.

Maybe the worst night I've had.

After the 1 bottle, I went to bed around 1am. Hubby works nights, so I usually wait up to see him. I had also taken a few Benadryl for my constant allergies/sleep readiness.

Tossed & turned all night. Freezing cold sweats. Short, continuous anxiety nightmares. Never once was I fully asleep. Woke and looked at the clock every 2 hours. Due at work (usual) 10am the following morning. I stank like something most foul serious when I awoke. Showered, shampooed, gargled, et al.

Got up. Went to work. Jamba Juice. Bagel. Everything was functioning as it should mind/body-wise. But the events of the previous night worked on my mind all fucking day. I couldn't wait/fear to get home and Google alcohol withdrawal.

So I did. And what I found out was pretty fucking scary. And after I read through about 15 articles, I realized I was shaking. I got really scared. Went directly to the market and bought wine. It took 3 glasses over 2 hours to regain my composure.

I will add: I have never - in 2 years of this pattern - ever been hungover. No headaches. No vomiting. No blackouts. No bad dreams. No cravings. I think that's why I called myself a "Wino" and never considered I was an alcoholic.

I think my good-time-party-wino days are over. According to what I read? I could have killed myself doing the self-weaning thing. (Amy Winehouse?)

http://www.drugs.com/health-guide/a…

I spoke with my husband, about this & my fears for myself, just last night - such a wonderful love of a man - and I will be seeing an MD this week for an at-home 7-day detox plan. I think the Librium plan is best, but I am leery of benzos.

I have an amazing therapist, whom I've seen for years regarding familial abuse & other issues. However, I have never spoken to her about alcohol use, as she is a fervent soberite - her dad was a raging alcoholic. So - I'm torn. I trust her so very much, but if I bring this up with her - I don't want to be judged, pidgeon-holed, preached to. Do I know she would do that? No. I'm just afraid she will, and I may lose my trust in her.

Questions:

Have you been through this, and what is your advice?

How did you manage detox? Food, vitamins, herbal supplements, counseling?

Statement:

I'm terrified. But, this must be done. Please help.

Thanks, everyone. I am most appreciative.

-Liz