I am the only girl of 6 kids and when, I had no sisters but I did have a group of friends who were my whole world. It was us 5 all the time. When I was 11 it turned out that our leader, cause she was the smartest and had a great charisma, teacher loved her, got diagnosed with cancer. It was weird, we were young and we had our entire lives ahead of us. To make a long story short, she died a week before her QuinciaƱera. To make the story even sadder she died on the day of her older brothers birthday, whom had died 2 years before, shot to the head because he flipped someone off, he was only 16 years of age. Loosing both of them was devastating, i dont know how her mom survived she is one strong woman. I always wonder what life would be like if she were still around, she is my life long friend always. I still miss her so much. It sucks.
@UnSeelie...: One of my best friends died in a car accident, ten years ago next spring, at the age of 15. I still like to go up to her grave when something happens that I think she would have liked to have known about, like when I met my husband.
I had a dream about her two weeks ago that just wouldn't leave me and I walked around in a fog of grief for a whole day. And last night I had a dream about her family - her folks and her brother (and his wife and kids) - and I woke up feeling very peaceful. She would have been 25 this month and I think she was just visiting me to make sure I remembered her and, because the first visit left me so sad, she came back again to let me know she was at peace and proud of where her family is today.
@trixavicious: I dream about my friend a lot too, and it has been 10 years. I dream that she was gone because she had to get some secrete cancer treatment that no one but she was supposed to know about and that she is really alive. Its a depressing thing to wake up and know she really is gone, but maybe she is letting me know that she is cured and is alive and well where ever that may be.
I totally relate to what Michelle is saying. I feel for her. I lost my boyfriend of three years 7 years ago and the "moving river" analogy is so apt. I try not to play "what if" but sometimes it just drowns you.
@LoSpaz: I'm sorry for your loss. I had a similar experience with an ex-fiance. I discovered a few years after our breakup that he had died, at a relatively young age. I was devastated.
@LoSpaz: I 'm sorry too. My boyfriend's been gone two months, and I just passed the one-year date of us finding out he was sick. You start getting better and then you're choking up because of a song in the grocery store...
@AnnaTwitch: Oh, the cruel songs that pop up on the radio or in a store when you least expect it. I was in a TJMaxx a couple weeks ago when 'Forever Young' came on. Cue me bawling in the clearance aisle with a little old lady offering me her handkerchief.
@Crabby Cakes wants some Dance Biscuits.: I hear 'When I Look to the Sky' on the work radio sometimes at work, and I can't stop the tears. Reminds me of my daddy :(. Music can just slay you.
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I'm sure it's even harder every time she experiences something with her daughter, can't wait to call him up and tell him about it, then realizes. The dynamics of raising a child like that must be absolutely unbearable some days.
I'm glad Michelle's opening up a little (um, since I know her in real life and have been totally worried about the way she doesn't talk to her family and friends...um..that is to say... the opposite of that). I think we all get reminded in unexpected ways of people (/celebrities) who have passed away. I've been having a Paul Newman Retrospective over the past few weeks...The Sting, Cool Hand Luke, and Butch Cassidy...it sort of assuages and spurs the grieving all at the same time.
The Michelle Williams quote is heartbreaking. Dealing with that kind of grief while raising a young child (who looks just like her late father) must be a staggering task. Lifelong snark pass from me.
@hellodarling!: I wish interviewers would refrain now. They had broken up; she's dating Spike Jonze, and her main connection to Heath would be through her daughter. It's not fair to keep asking about him, no matter how gracious her answers.
@brendastarlet: Agreed 1000%. I want to hear about her new projects--her grief is hers alone, and journalists shouldn't be trying to capitalize on it to get mention.
@hellodarling!: I hated her character on Dawsons, and was happily surprised when she emerged as an actress who takes on projects that interest her, as opposed to those who took on ones that would either make quick cash or be titillating. Her and Heath's "no big deal" approach to living in New York was also a welcome refreshment to other DC alums who couldn't stop talking about how "amazing" their life was.
@dancerevolution: I agree with you. She has shown grace and poise under terribly difficult circumstances. I'm glad that she and Matilda have each other.
I get that. At first it is just a shocking event, like an accident. Then a year later, it hits you that the person is STILL gone and will never come back.
@treecut just Baracked the Vote!: Yeah, you'd think the 1st year would be the hardest, with all the milestones, but when I lost my brother the 2nd year was WAY harder.
@treecut just Baracked the Vote!: I know exactly how she feels. I still miss my mother, sister and two brothers and it gets worse each year. I think Michelle's feelings are worse because of her little girl and the fact that child is the spitting image of her daddy!!
@mslewis: I was going to say the same thing. It has to make it harder to watch his child grow and change and be constantly reminded that he's not there to see it.
@sweetbeans: @BrutallyHonestBabes: I just miss being able to do it every day, and not getting looks like "why is crazy lady in work clothes getting on the swings?"
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I had a dream about her two weeks ago that just wouldn't leave me and I walked around in a fog of grief for a whole day. And last night I had a dream about her family - her folks and her brother (and his wife and kids) - and I woke up feeling very peaceful. She would have been 25 this month and I think she was just visiting me to make sure I remembered her and, because the first visit left me so sad, she came back again to let me know she was at peace and proud of where her family is today.
I still miss her anyway.
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Also, anyone else get really triggered by certain scents? Sometimes a certain scent will hit me and it's like a floodgate.
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@hellodarling!: I hated her character on Dawsons, and was happily surprised when she emerged as an actress who takes on projects that interest her, as opposed to those who took on ones that would either make quick cash or be titillating. Her and Heath's "no big deal" approach to living in New York was also a welcome refreshment to other DC alums who couldn't stop talking about how "amazing" their life was.
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Agreed. For a celebrity she is quite private, seemingly smart, and lovely. She conducts herself with dignity.
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