I just feel bad because perhaps he did want to do something special but I just fucked it all up.
Thing is, this holiday stresses me out. About a week ago, I pulled my boyfriend aside to talk about how I don't like the holiday and that he didn't need to get me anything. I did tell him that if the holiday meant something to him then perhaps I could make a nice dinner for us. His reply was that it was a womans holiday and he didnt care much for it. I thought "awesome" and planned to make him his fave dinner tonight. Well, he got me a lil something last night (no flowers, thank dog) and keeps saying "Happy Valentine's, baby".
As a woman, I'm sure I'm a lone ranger in thinking this way, but I try to show my SO that I love him and care for him everyday. But I feel like an ass. And the thing is that I SHOULD be happy and wearing red, because I have a good man that loves me, but I just don't. It sucks when you're single because if you don't get a big fucking Teddy bear with 16 chocolate kabobs sticking out of its gut, then you don't feel important. And if you're in a loving relationship, then you're obligated to do something today or you look (and / or feel) like a dick if you don't.
But if I'm just an asshole (aka the Vday Grinch) then someone just say it. #Groupthink
Fuck, I miss Oregon :(
FAIL.
Sweetie, try being "fluffy" and then we can talk.